Wednesday, May 27, 2009

i want her wedding gown. BEAUTIFUL.

I'm so obsessed with Portia's wedding gown. i could not have dreamt of something more beautiful.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Friday, May 15, 2009


writing was amazing though, i have to hand it to them.. the whole 'oo7' thing. i balled my eyes out... that was too creative.. even though it probably confused ppl. who havent watched since the beginning.. because that dates back to the very first episode.. i like how they do that though. it makes it more special and meaningful.. and sad.. and ahhh, i get way too into this damn show.. but im so sadddd. i didnt want him to leave. they better not kill off izzy too. i will boycott!!

Wednesday, May 13, 2009


you leave something in your closet for a while and it shrinks 2 sizes!!!

small town.

the thing about living in a small town is, when you dont know what youre doing, someone else does.

the best way to forget your troubles is to wear tight shoes.

my mind not only wanders, its been known to leave completely.


one of life's mysteries is how a 2-pound box of chocolate can make a woman gain 5 lbs.

just when i was getting used to yesterday, along came today.

big crane. small pond.

i think its coming together.

Monday i start my trial for my idea for a charity. I am testing it out on my life, to see if it is as efficient as i hope it will be. i hope so. i have always wanted to start my own charity. (its an odd thing to dream but im an odd bird)

Monday, May 11, 2009

i think snow is one idealisticly romantic.

how much is accurate?

LEO - The Boss (July 23 - Aug 22)Very organized. Need order in their lives - like being in control. Like boundaries. Tend to take over everything. Bossy. Like to help Others. Social and outgoing. Extroverted. Generous, warm-hearted. Sensitive. Creative energy. Full of themselves. Loving. Doing the right thing is important to Leos. Attractive.

hmmm... organized.. not very true. im usually a mess.

needs order in my life? not accurate at all. I love going with the flow and being completely random. I love not knowing where the day is going to take me.

likes being in control. that is true on some things. i like to be in control in my work area. i think 'liking' to be in control but never actually being in control is more accurate for my life.

like boundaries. that is true with my love life. but that is the only area. I spent a great deal in a grey area with my first love and i didnt like it. i like to know where i stand in a relationship.

tend to take over everything. haahah. that is true in my social life. i have this involuntary ability to be the center of attention. i love eyes on me. because i love to tell stories and laugh and i love for ppl to laugh at what i am saying/doing.

bossy. yes. true. but oddly, i dont think in a bad way. i mean im sure sometimes, it probably is..but all my friends know they can just say shut the hell up and i get the point. lol.. but i am a bit of a boss. =)

likes to help others. very true. i think its true for most leo's. i dont know what it is about us. there is something about that feeling of walking away knowing you spent your day revolved around someone else's life instead of your own. its rewarding.. there is nothing better. 70% of why i have chosen nursing as a profession.

social and outgoing/extroverted. omg. SO true. i get it from my mom and grandma.. we are the kind of people that never meet a stranger. i can talk to anyone/anywhere. and i never forget a face, if i meet you once, the next time i see you.. youll get a hug and im your best friend. lol.. some people have given me the crazy girl stare before because i have met them once, or maybe talked to them at the hair salon or a bar or something random. and if i see them again.. im like heyyyyy how are ya.. and there have been a few like 'who the hell are you' stares. lol..

generous/warm-hearted. haha, uhmmmm.. i like to think so.. i can be selfish at times. i admit.. but i think im generous.. ha, i think everyone thiks they are.. im sure if the grinch was asked the same, he was claim to be generous. haha. but seriously.. i try.. if i can give it, i will. and warm hearted. very.

sensitive. hmmm.. if you were to ask me this about three or four years ago, i would not have been able to deny it. when i was younger, i took everything so personally. i was a sensitive person. but i have been through a lot since then and i think getting older requires a certain amount of thick skin. and i have needed my share. that is for sure, i havent exactly been the best as choosing my friends wisely. other than my best friends obviously. they are still my heart. but i think now, i am actually very unsensitive (is that a word?) .. in that sense anyways.. if you venture into my romantic life, i havent had all that much experience in that area, so i would assume myself to be a little more sensitive. yes.

creative energy. yes. i can agree with this. but in a non traditional way. im not creative in a way that i can paint or sing or play instruments. i am a writer. i dont do it that often.. but when i do. i find it to be very creative. and my all around ora.. very creatively random is how i would describe myself.

full of myself? HA. i think this should be in the February birthdays area more than Leo. I can be i guess. its rare. ive tried to be but i always feel stupid and embarrassed. im not very good at it. i am more likely to be full of myself in an acomplishment i have done or something of that nature rather than superficial means.

loving. yes. i love everyone. i love to make fun of everyone, anyone who knows me knows that.. but that is not the same as judgement. i make no judgement as to how others live their lives, mainly becuase i was in a place at one time in my life where i didnt always make the best choices, and i was judged. it was overwhelming. and no one understand because they werent in my shoes. so.. i have learned that everyone is different, they make their mistakes based on things i cant understand sometimes. but they are still people and i do love everyone. whats not to love?

doing the right thing. HA. im working on it. im sort of a rebel in this area of my life. again, if i were asked this even just two years ago, i wouldnt have honestly been able to answer yes. i was at a place where i didnt care about anything or anyone, especially myself. call it my low. and i did what i wanted, what made me happy at the moment. there are things we wish we could take back, but we cant. but ive grown up and i can honestly say, that i do try to do the right thing.. in my mind.. what i think is right might not be what others think.. but i do try.

attractive. hahah. well thank you horoscope. do i think im attractive? yes, i do..i think my personality off sets that though. when you look at me.. i have had many girls not like me at first glance, because i am blonde and skinny and 'pretty' (i feel so lame saying that) but.. my personality is very goofy, very light hearted all the time. i dont take much too seriously. life is too short for that.. so i will say, that i dont think im ugly by no means.. but i dont look at myself in that way, no one percieves themselves the same way that someone else would.

and its open. for distraction.

all of us girls back together again. or well.. most of us.

meagan's wedding! slash mini high shcool class of '04 reunion.

Ellen Degeneres is one of my favorites.

she is too funny. love love her.

sales reps.

i dont want to speak for 'all' sales reps but OMG the ones i work with have got to be some of the dumbest people i have ever met. it is outrageous..where did you go to college??? seriously. some of them arent so much stupid as they are lazy. i dont know which i find more annoying.. probably the lazy ones. but come on.. damn.

i really wish i could contain my excitement..

but I CANT! .. omg i am sooo oober stoked about this coming weeekend.. going to birmingham to be with my best friends in the world.. i cannot wait.. stupid monday!! im ready for it to be friday so i can head down there.

i have my final final (hehe) on wednesday.. which means only two more study days left.. ahhh.. freaking out a little. but it will make the time pass quickly. im ready for a break so i can get back to ready the books i want to read!

Friday, May 8, 2009

billie holiday

ill be seeing you.

jitter bug.

i have a very nervous feeling. i dont know where it came from, it just showed up. i cant seem to shake it either. i am all jittering and i have butterflies in my stomach. i am on the edge of my seat and anxious. the exact feeling you get when you have a crush on someone and youre about to see them. but, i dont plan on meeting anyone, and i have no love interests, so that cant be the reason. i wish i could shake this feeling.

am i getting a suprise? =)

one of my favorite songs.

Thursday, May 7, 2009

i crave to be in soliude sometimes.

sometimes people are too much. they want too much. they need too much. they are just.... too much. and isolation is necessary for me at times. I need some time to be alone with myself to make sure im still me. i crave to be with a book or music alone in my room tonight.


i feel beautiful.
but i wont turn around.
he cant see.

what if he doesnt see me that way.

contracted muscle fibers. (way cool)

my love for the beatles is intense.

Tuesday, May 5, 2009


random fact: im a terrible swimmer. I didnt learn to swim until i was ten years old. I was always so afraid of the water. I would go to pool birthday parties and i even had a couple of them and i would be stuck in the shallow end and finally i decided i needed to learn. but to this day, i cannot swim very well. im slow and awkward. lol.