Friday, February 27, 2009


im most like..

Best Friends

Sorry Lyns. you're Yang.

Im totally Mer.

dont forget me. (w.o.w)

there's just one thing that i need to say...
before i close my eyes and walk away.

there's just one thing that i need to feel...
before i walk away against my will.

uhm, excuse me. can someone point me in direction of this street please?

colour revolt.

i heart this picture. were the sneakiest groupies ever. (wait, can you be a groupie if you arent actually sleeping with the band?)

theres a reason we get addicted in the first place.

But eventually that thing thats getting you high, whatever it is, is going to start to hurt you.

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

the realization. the truth. the cure.

problem: As we grow up, we learn that the one person that wasn't supposed to let you down, probably will.
answer: If you dont want to be dissapointed, dont depend on others. They didn't climb up that pedestal themselves.
problem: You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time.
answer: learn from the past experiences, it might not make it easier, but it prevents us from the same heartache twice.
problem: You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.
answer: Girls, DONT do that. Trust me, there will be plenty of new and fresh mistakes your new guy will make. You dont need to hang on to the old ones. All guys are F ups, but they are all original in their diagnosis.
problem: you're going to wake up one day, not that far from now and realize that life is passing by way too fast.
answer: It doesnt slow down to let you maintain your youth, and it doesnt stop when you hit rock bottom. So LIVE. and laugh. and love. Take too many pictures. Sing too loudly. Love like youve never been hurt. Cry, and cry hard. But make sure after you cry, you laugh again.

pack your bags, were going on a cruise.

Lynsey (my bff) and I decided we are in dyre need of a vacation. We are both so over this routine life. Same shit, different day. We have been talking about all the different vacations that we wanted to take for our birthdays this year. (both in summer). And we came up with NY. Hawaii. etc. Then lyns got a little carried away and decided we were moving to hawaii to live on a surf board and make cocktails for a living. And be bums. Sounds good to me. but thats another story.

Anyways, back to the focal point. We decided to take a cruise. In May (28th to be exact). A short 3 night cruise to bahamas. But we both in desperate need to get away. I think our lives are in the same place and we both feel exactly the same about it. like its wasting away.

Anyways, we are doing a 3 night 4 day cruise to the Bahamas on Carnival! YAYYYYYYYY!

I love vacation, especially with my lynsers!!

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

at first creepy. but then sweet.

This video clip made me tear up. This is really sad/weird/sweet. All at the same time.

oh CNN.

hahahah there is nothing funny about this article, accept this...

NEW DELHI, Indian (CNN) -- A 20-year-old poverty-stricken woman has been charged for selling her newborn baby boy, police in southern India said Tuesday.

they misspelled India, and named the entire country Indian!! hahahah.

Friday, February 20, 2009

i dont wanna risk our paths crossing someday..

so you walk that way,

Ill walk this way.

-today i realized that the only romance i have in my life is through watching meredith and derek on grey's anatomy. FML

Chris Brown needs to be castrated!

There is absolutely NO excuse for something like this. Not that I was ever a huge chris brown fan in the first place, but NOW i boycott anything that involves him. Grow up and stop beating up on women, didnt your mom teach you anything????

im going to reiterate this picture.

Have you ever noticed that nancy is always giving the shocker??

Thursday, February 19, 2009

i want to meet you. i heart you nancy.

america. come one, seriously??

nothing pisses me off more than seeing stories like this one.
first of all drunk ass, take a cab.. dont go jumping in front of a subway. Second of all, its a freaking LEG for goodness sake. A LEG. Im sorry, but no leg is worth 3 million dollars. I mean hell, maybe i should go to new york and get my arm severed off after a round at happy hour and see how much I can get out of it.
And where were you cops on this one?? I mean you are there when Im not wearing my seatbelt, you are there when i got 8 miles over the speed limit, you are there when i illegally park. But i guess you decided to take a break when this man should have been arrested for public intoxication!!
It just cracks me up that america is in the shit hole right now, cutting THOUSANDS of jobs, government jobs, making HUGE budgets cuts. And yet, we are giving away 3 mil to a drunk ass idiot who was playing in the subway tracks.
New Yorkers, if i were you, i would get my complaining boots on. and I would be pissed. I would not be okay with that bullshit.

And to you Mr. Subway driver, if you are fired over this. Then I am very sorry. You were just doing your job.. driving your sub. I would fight back!

Wednesday, February 18, 2009


cutest baby ever. i love him dearly.

Dear God,

you and i both know that we dont talk that often. Usually when I talk to you, I talk about the people that are important to me. I ask you to watch over them and protect them. I figure it cant hurt to ask for prayers to be answered when they are for others.

I have to ask, though, that you remember what we talked about last night. I know its about me. And i know that i have no right to ask for anything from you. But i also know that you are God and even though im not perfect. you are.

So, i just ask that you help me out this once. Because i have been trying to do it on my own for a long time now, and clearly, it isnt working for me. So i ask that you take this weight from me. Im giving it to you because I know that you, God, have the answer. So, I dont want to carry around these questions anymore.

Thank you for your time,


Tuesday, February 17, 2009

damn you kidney.

I am officially on a payment plan to my kidneys for the fun I had friday night. The kids are not happy with me!! I am officially in a tremendous amount of pain. I have to make yet another trip to the doctor to get more medication for the same damn thing. Andddd Im stuck at work and wishing I was curled up in a ball in my bed.

So, kidneys.. do you think you could do me a grand favor and do your freaking job, for once in your life??

Monday, February 16, 2009

she just cares about you.

ok, all you author's out there, listen up. One of you needs to write a book to help men out. There is an entire section of books dedicated to helping women not be so clueless. There is why men love bitches, skinny bitch, hes just not that into you, its called a break up because its broken, etc. All these books are basically telling women to be thin, know when its over, and know when i guy just doesnt want you. Like we are incompetent. These are books that basically let a guy get off the hook if they dump you without reason, we are told to just move on, it happened, get over it. dont call him. dont talk to him. you dont want him to think you are needy and crazy.. dont eat too much or else you wont look like what a guy wants you to look like. If a guy you like is too self involved to notice you, were supposed to move on.. forget about him.. we are not told to make it a point for him to notice us because that makes us, again, crazy or obsessive. All these books make tell us that that guys are guys and its accpetable, and that we need to cater to what they want and dont want. Lets make it easy for them.

But where is the book for men? The how to be a descent human being, how not to be such a dick head, or something like there is your dream girl, stop looking at yourself long enought to see her. Where is the book calling all the men out. They are genetically wired to be ass holes and so we just have accept that as a malfunction in their dna?? screw that.

Guys need some sort of how to manual. They need a guide telling them what not to do to girls. They say girls are all crazy. And 98% of the time that is true. But i think "crazy" is like a gland that has to be stimulated in us for it to be activated (there are acceptions, some girls are just nutzo). Guys do some of the meanest, dirtiest, selfish things to girls, and then turn around and blame it on us being "crazy" or "needy"

There needs to be a book called "she just cares about you" that gives guys a clue into our world. instead of saying "if he doesnt call you after the first date, hes not that into you" there needs to be a book that describes womens actions. "if she cleans your apartment for you, dont freak out, she isnt hinting for you to marry you, she just cares about you" (example)

Friday, February 13, 2009

the history.

Valentine was a priest who served during the third century in Rome. When Emperor Claudius II decided that single men made better soldiers than those with wives and families, he outlawed marriage for young men — his crop of potential soldiers. Valentine, realizing the injustice of the decree, defied Claudius and continued to perform marriages for young lovers in secret. When Valentine's actions were discovered, Claudius ordered that he be put to death.

Legend has it that when killed, they ripped out his heart and hung it for others to see as an example. To scare people out of marrying. This is (aupposedly) where the heart shaped boxes of chocolates, and cards, etc. got its form.

The real life romeo & juliet..

According to one legend, Valentine actually sent the first 'valentine' greeting himself. While in prison, it is believed that Valentine fell in love with a young girl — who may have been his jailor's daughter — who visited him during his confinement. Before his death, it is alleged that he wrote her a letter, which he signed 'From your Valentine,' an expression that is still in use today. Although the truth behind the Valentine legends is murky, the stories certainly emphasize his appeal as a sympathetic, heroic, and, most importantly, romantic figure.


I have a problem. I am addicted to shopping. I cant stop. Or control it. It's absolutely my favorite thing in the entire world. Its my therapy. (haha im cher from clueless). Even more specific, I am addicted to online shopping. In the last 45 minutes I bought a new camera (Nikon) and memory to go with it ($25) a camcorder for lynsey and me and our conquests in life and a memory card for it and a wireless internet card for my computer so I can FINALLY use the internet at the house. Then I clicked my way over to and I got a new apple nano i wanted the touch but i think the nano is so much cuter. The shuffle, for the gym i am not yet a member of but will be tomorrow, im joining tomorrow. and an ipod 'sock' to keep it safe in..dont ask.. it was cute. Then I ramdomly found myself at the aveda store online where i thought it was necessary to purchase shampoo and conditioner, hairspray, and a brush.

Not to mention the case of wine I have to get for my party tonight, and the keg (which suprisingly only turns out to be about 100 bucks. But that isnt really shopping, i dont count that. That is just on my to do list today, along with getting my eyebrows under control!

And if i know myself well enough, today was payday, which means i will probably haev to stop in on urban outiftters and see if there is anything ' i have to have' ...

I seriously need some help.

Thursday, February 12, 2009

favorite storyline of the week.

A man, Rob, proposed to a woman in a super market aisle. He said that was the place he saw her for the first time.

She said yes between the cat food and tampons.

When asked if she thought it was romantic. She replied, "yes, actually"

I want my life to read like a victorian romance novel.

holy hottness.

happy birthday.

I want to wish a very special birthday to my dear colleen. I love you. I would also like to say happy birthday to my nana! the big 68 nana.. you go girl!

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

this is my love life.

You know in the movies when someone goes through a breakup or a divorce, they depict her thoughts by having her walk through a park and looking around. And every single person that surrounds her is in love. That is my life.

this is how i feel today.

all hale king snowmanner.

Hopper, we need to take a lesson from this chick on how to properly snowman someone. Even though it, shortly after, leads to a breakup. But still, its entertaining.


There is a slight possibility that I just made a B on my exam. I am PISSED. Because I cant make a B. That defeats the whole purpose of working my ass off. I more than likely made an A, however on the essay questions, I am not sure i provided enough information. I brain was on a cigarette break. Damn you brain. So now i have to kick ass in the final and get a perfect score to maintain an A. urgh.

the first.

I am leaving work and heading to school to take my first exam of the semester. Its a big one! It accounts for 50% of my grade. So im a little nervous.

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

today's entertainment.

Lynsey: i need to be looking at how its going to ride and feel on your tooter not what it looks like
Amanda: hahaahahah
anything will feel good on it
to far
Lynsey: hahhahahahahaahhaa
so gross
Amanda: there is a bike brand
"good vibrations"
iwant that onw
Lynsey: hahhahahhah
Sent at 5:30 PM on Tuesday
Lynsey: i want to ride it
Amanda: hahaahah.
hell i would take "mediocre vibrations" at this point
Lynsey: hahahhahahah
hell i would ride a scooter at this point
Amanda: hahahah
Lynsey: or a pony
ew gross
that just sounded like i was into animals
Amanda: id even take
this would do for now
hahaha that is hiolariuos
Amanda: hahahahaah
worlds smallest teacup
i should be on there. for worlds smallest sex life
Lynsey: that is cute

the keefonator.

by the time i recognize this moment. this moment will be gone.

from day one people come into your life and, shortly after, people leave you.

A good example of this would be my dad. He came into my life (well my mom's life) had me, hung out for a little while, then when we left. He just let us. Ive lived a majority of my life without him in it.

I think back on all my childhood friends and how we were all so close up through high school, but as soon as the day came to graduate. We dispursed. Like roaches when the light comes on. It saddens me to think about all the people that helped shaped me into who i am and how they are so far out of my life. They are not seen daily. They are not even thought about daily. We cling to dramatic hugs and short games of playing catch up, because that is all we have anymore.

There are the people you had fights with and stop speaking, i now wonder what the fight was even about. There are the break ups that end communication. I hate to think that someone I once loved is now out in the world carrying on without me. Wasnt there a time when you couldn't imagine your life without me?

And every now and then we are unfortunate enough to witness the death of someone we love. Its the worst way to be left because you werent left voluntarily. Choice wasnt a factor.

currently feeling.

currently listening slash reminiscing.

currently pretending to know how to play.

currently reading.

currently studying.

currently crushing.

Monday, February 9, 2009


Here is to the guy that was too fucking stupid to realize something great right in front of him. And here is to the guy after that. The one who catches the opportunity to be with someone so amazing!


J'ai passé ma vie entière aimant d'autres. Je donnerais à la chemise outre du mon de nouveau à l'aide un étranger. Je travaille dur pour être le meilleur ami que je peux être à mes filles.

Bien qu'il y ait seulement deux hommes dans ma vie l'où je me suis inquiété réellement. Je ne suis pas entré dans eux avec des jeux et la mentalité de toyish. Quand j'aime quelqu'un (et son pas qui souvent) mais quand je, je les aime pleins heartedly. Je ne crois pas en jeu. Je ne crois pas que vous devez jouer effarouché. Si vous aimez vraiment quelqu'un. Je pense qui devrait être assez. J'ai un mauvais habbit de porter mon coeur sur ma douille. Si je vous aime, vous saurez, s'im fou à toi, vous saura, si je m'ennuie de toi, vous saura.

Je dois être honnête cependant. Je suis fatigué. Je suis fatigué d'être celui à donner toujours. J'ai ce besoin incessant de satisfaire chacun. I le peuple qui j'aime être heureux, parce que l'inturn, il me rend heureux.

Mais juste une fois, je veux que quelqu'un sente cette manière au sujet de moi. Il est temps pour un changement de ma vie. Je veux que quelqu'un pense ils sont le type le plus chanceux au monde parce qu'ils m'ont. Je veux quelqu'un qui adorera la terre que je marche dessus. Je veux quelqu'un que je ne dois pas me demander s'il est outre de la fraude sur moi ou pas. Je veux, pendant une fois dedans ma vie, pour que quelqu'un sorte de leur manière pour moi.

Je veux que quelqu'un m'aime.

Friday, February 6, 2009

this is how im feeling at the moment.

remember that old saying
"when life hands you lemons, you make lemonade"

..I will be selling it for .25 a glass.

Lynders Inc.

My best friend and I have this thing where when we are together, the strangest things happen to us. Like a random guy asking if he can strip for us, or a big black man trying to beat lynsey up at a hot dog stand, or getting caught in the revolving door at the Georgian Terrace.

My point is, we have this friendship what is totally entertaining. We crack each other up, not to metion the innocent bystanders and over hear us.

We decided that someone must want to take an interest in our personalities.

Together we would kick Regis & Kelly's ass. I mean if a single mom can request a talk show host and exploit her 14 children to gain money and fame. Why cant we want to have our own talk show?

I am going to best buy and buying a cheap camcorder and we are going to record the events we share. The first up is Ben Folds concert, and then oysterfest, and then we have the DMB concert we are going to. We are scalping tickets for that, so that should be entertaining in itself.

We are going to call this expedition 'Lynders Inc' which is lynsey and amanda together. duh.

We are going to post our videos on and ask people to rank them as to how entertaining we are, and go from there.

If nothing else, we still think that we are 15 years old. And this will entertain the hell out of us. if no one else.

I will be posting links to the videos as soon as we get it started.

the best part of thursdays..

Grey's Anatomy was a little bit of a disappointment last night, not going to lie. I thought they were going to combine private practice and grey's and make it this big colaboration. Like an Elton John-Eminem hoop-la.

There is another "special" cross over with the two next week and it better be good!

Over all Grey's was a good episode. I enjoyed it, but Shonda Rhimes (writer) what are you doing? Let me speak for most when I say, we DO NOT want meredith thinking that McDreamy is cheating on her again. She has clearly had enough shit go bad within the last five seasons (which is probably why i can relate to her so well) . I LOVED the fact that he is proposing. love it. its about damn time. and i love that she is ready and wants his babies. But im glad he didnt propose with all the roses, that isnt for her. And I hope that he remembers what the prego patient said when she said that her husband proposed in a super market because that is where he "saw" her for the first time. That is where he truely fell in love. That is romance in a nut shell. That couldnt be more perfect, and i hope that happens for meredith and derek. I hope there is a moment, a random, out of the blue, moment where derek just knows its the right time.

But please please please dont let this turn into she thinks he is cheating on her because she found a rose petal under the pillow. And I will really be pissed if she thinks he is cheating on her with addison. Oh, and what is this on the previews that addison and derek share some sort of kiss. It better be a thank you for saving my brothers life kiss and not a i want to jump on you because you are looking hott kiss. Because I will boycott!!! And i hope even more than that, that meredith doesnt walk in on this little kissy scene. I will have to write in my complaints.

Supposedly there is one more season left. Maybe there is more. However, if this is in fact the case. I think it should go something like this.

mer and der get engaged. mer and der plan the wedding (yes, there can be some bumps and bruises for them) but in the end i want the finale to be there wedding and them ACTUALLY saying 'i do' .. something that christina never got to do.

izzy needs to go ahead and find out she is sick. hides it for a while until she has a dramatic faint during surgery or something. George takes to her rescue and they reunite their friendship. and i cannot stand to see another surgeon croke so.. she will survive in the end.

alex- eh, i dont give a shit about his character and if he is or isnt here. he just gets on my nerves.

christina - im not a huge fan of her and McMilitary but im hpoing it grows on me. she is so hard headed and cold and i do want a romance to bring out the bright and shiny in her so she will stop raining on merediths romance.

i like bailey in peids. i want her see her deny the attnending position for GS and find herself down the path of peidiatrics.

ok im done.

Thursday, February 5, 2009

brought to you by: bee hives. flickr.

i heart being a girl.

ouch. i got kicked again. but..

i will not walk away from love.

i will not walk away from love.

i will not walk away from love.

i will not walk away from love.

i will not walk away from love.

you you you you you
you you you you you
you you you you you
you you you you you
you you you ME you
you you you you you
love is complicated.