Monday, May 24, 2010

I lost one of my closet friends...

whitney -

i havent been able to find the right words, they never seem to be enough. i have typed and back spaced a thousand times, but all i really want to tell you is that i love you and i miss you. knowing someone for 15 years seems like forever until you dont get a 16th. A small hole now resides in my heart where your smile once lived. 24 years was not enough time on this earth, but my brain is only so big and i cant begin to understand God's plan. Only He knows why it was your time to go. Give the Lord a warm embrace for me. i will see you at the end of the road. I love you.


(april 23, 1986 - may 23, 2010)

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

catching up.

its been entirely too l ong since i have blogged. I have looked at some blogs today and it made me think of mine. i am too tired. too confused. too overworked. and way too aggrivated at everything and everyone. i need to graduate asap to keep my sanity. ahh.

Friday, March 5, 2010


ok, i have to rant. normally, i dont like to discuss things that are controversial but I need to today.
I take issue with these religious right wing nut cases that want to kill Tilikum for killing his trainer. I understand that it is a sad tragic story. i get that. and i also get that he has killed a trainer in the past and a homeless person (supposedly) but to those of you that think he should be "put down" or set free. I have issue with you.

A) you cant set the whale free, its been in a tank for 30 years, it wouldnt last two days in the wild. You cant feed it fish from a bucket for three decades and then expect him to know how to fend for himself.

B) put him down.. really? is that your answer to everything? oh its just an animal lets just shoot a tranquilizer at it and call it a day. Its a FREAKING WHALE. its mind cant understand what he did. its his nature, hince the nick name KILLER whale. Im sorry, because its a sad sad story but you cant take a freaking 50 foot, 12 thousand pound animal of the sea and put him in a swimming pool and expect him not to act out. i would be pissed off too. Sea World has made millions off of Tilikum so if they decide to put him down, i will be extremely dissapointed and saddened.

He is an animal, with animal tendencies, and animal behavior. So if killing him is your answer. Then we need to discuss people killing people. People have the mindset to know better than to kill other people, yet we dont put them down. we spend millions of dollar a year letting them sit in a box and trade cigarettes for razor blades. Because it would be 'wrong' to kill someone because they did the same. and yet, with animals .. we take no second thoughts about it.

its gross. and thats all im going to say.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

daily horoscope.

You probably aren’t feeling your best today, Leo. No doubt your illness is a result of recent overindulgence. You can't blame anyone but yourself for your crashing headache and queasy stomach. Try not to take your bad mood out on the family. Just ask them to close the curtains and shut the door. You will emerge in the early afternoon feeling a bit wobbly but definitely on the mend.

Friday, December 18, 2009

it can't be tragic if we haven't kissed...

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Bright Star.

Bright star! would I were steadfast as thou art—
Not in lone splendour hung aloft the night,
And watching, with eternal lids apart,
Like Nature's patient sleepless Eremite,
The moving waters at their priestlike task
Of pure ablution round earth's human shores,
Or gazing on the new soft fallen mask
Of snow upon the mountains and the moors—
No—yet still steadfast, still unchangeable,
Pillow'd upon my fair love's ripening breast,
To feel for ever its soft fall and swell,
Awake for ever in a sweet unrest,
Still, still to hear her tender-taken breath,
And so live ever—or else swoon to death.

-favorite poem from my favorite poet.

Im so ready to graduate!

Wednesday, October 28, 2009


I, like every one else i know, hates going to the grocery store. Its a pain the ass, you always have to wear a sweartshirt and boots to keep warm in there no matter what time of year it is, people are rude.. so i was thinking that they should have some sort of system to where i can order my grocercies online and go ahead and pay for them online at a certain grocery store and location and when enter a time when i would be coming to pick them up. like between 6:30-7 for example and that way when i get there i can run it and there will be a bag(s) of my stuff all ready to go for me. and id be in and out in 5 minutes, and the people hired for this position would have a system with a huge refrigerator thing worked out that way the cold stuff would stay cold until i arrived simply sticking that stuff in the bag and id be on my way.

picture found.

my bffff sent me this picture she found on flckr. and its just so peaceful. i love it.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

follow up..

GMA interviewed the woman in the robbery and it is a heart warming and heart breaking interview all in one.

She said all he wanted was someone to talk to. OMG i want to hug him and take him in! He said he was going to be homeless.. my heart is broken for him!

this woman is an angel!

Wednesday, October 21, 2009


AMAZING STORY. positive news for once. this made me tear up, i love this story.

Friday, October 16, 2009

what a load...

LEO! here is my daily horoscop.. they never seem to apply to me.

Intuitive insights come in handy today--pay attention. Today is a day of smooth sailing for whatever project you will become involved. All opposition seems to have melted away. However, the energies are felt for no more than three days--with only a single day in which the effects are strong. For this reason you should use the time in the best possible way. You are inclined to step in and improve any communication problems at work. You may decide to devise a system to improve the exchange of information among coworkers. You have the opportunity to do this now. There is the potential to clear the air on past events concerning a friend or family member this evening--patience. Improved health is indicated.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Lykke Li

-dont you let me go tonight..

"The Shack"

"But can you clean your face with the same mirror that shows you how dirty you are?"

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

A Quote from "The Shack"

"Mack, pain has a way of clipping our wings and keeping us from being able to fly. .. And if it's left unresolved for very long, you can almost forget that you were ever created to fly in the first place."

A quote from the book "The Same Kind of Different As Me"

"Then after I met Miss Debbie and Mr. Ron, I worried that I was so different from them that we wasn't never gone have no kind a' future. But I found out that everybody's different, the same kind of different as me. Were all just regular folks walking down the road God done set in front of us. The truth about it is, whether we is rich or poor or something in between.. this earth aint no final resting place.. so in a way, we is all homeless.. just working our way towards home."

-This is my favorite book i have ever read. (so far). It will make you stop, if only for a moment, and think about your life and the others around you. I highly reccomend this book.

Monday, August 17, 2009